Tuesday, October 26, 2010

my weekend

So the weekend was fun irritating and crazy…Friday I went for a job out in the valley, had dinner with the super sexy Tony Bones…who by the way is the best interpretive dancer I know…(when I do go back to PSK you should check us out), anyway….
While I am gone my roommate tells me he is going to pick up his friend…which really means at least 3 friends…ok I am cool with that…as long as they keep it down while I was studying…which they did…
Saturday morning I woke up to three girls sleeping on my living room floor and a house full of empty beer cans, and dirty dishes…I couldn’t make coffee because there was way too much in my way…and who ever knows me I’m not so sweet without my coffee
So I go outside to smoke a cigarette and one of the girls follows me out there…while we were talking she begins to go into a full body seizure…fuck…
I am yelling for any one of the girls to wake up to come help me out, because the way she was positioned she was going to hit her head on my concrete wall…I’m holding her head when they finally come outside…I told one of them that if she keeps going we were going to half to call for the fire department…
We end up calling 911 because her seizure lasted for a good min and a half…
I picked her up after she stopped and brought her inside…(yes I’m strong lol)…
I had one of the girls run up and grab my roommate so he could move the furniture around so the FD had a place to put the gurney…
They came, I gave a quick report with what I knew about her…and they left…this was all before 9am…
Later my roommate goes to the hospital to pick her up and bring her back (she was fine by the way, she has seizures all the time)…
when they come back my brother asked me if I want to go out to dinner with our friend Eric who just came back from Afghanistan. Who I hadn’t seen in months…which was good to see him…alive (after he had been blown up over there)…
So I had only a few hours to study…
When we (my brother and I) came back from dinner, we walked into another party…which was not planned…I had to finish studying for my quiz on Monday…
They were so loud downstairs at 11pm I had to leave the house…I went to Dennys for a bit to have some coffee and hopefully read…which didn’t work either because I guess they were having a party too…the music was soooooo loud…
so I was about to leave when my server kindly stopped me, turned down the music and moved me to a quite table…
So I got to read for an hour before all the drunk people came in…
When I came home the party was still raging…I tried to sleep a little because I had a shoot the next day…so I wasn’t going to be able to study again…
(The shoot was fun it was at this garage that housed a bunch of old corvettes…I can’t wait for the pics)
I came home around 7pm and my brother and roommate were on the couch…the place was spotless…they knew I was frustrated…
I opened the books to study some more, but ended up falling asleep…waking up to my alarm screaming at me to get the fuck up…
So the whole weekend I probably spent about 5 hours in the books….you think that’s a long time right? Not for nursing school…I should be spending at least 9 hours a day reading…
All in all I failed my quiz…
So I had a long talk with my roommate when I came home…I basically told him no more parties at the house until school is done, otherwise I will move out and live in my truck again…if I’m not working I should be in the books…I have spent 12 years trying to get into this program…and now its here…I cant fuck up any more…
Ok break time over back to the books
Thanks for listening to my venting
xoxo

Thursday, October 14, 2010

HIV

Since this seems to be the topic for discussion this week...lets talk about HIV...it is not just a homosexual thing its a straight thing as well...People are putting the blame on homosexuality in the industry, but it does not just effect homosexuality it effects everyone.Those who go out and are careless, who have sex without a condom with those people who are not tested are putting themselves and everyone else at risk.

Prevention is the key....no glove no love...use condoms in your personal life if you are going to be in the Porn industry, even if your not....HIV is not something to joke about...It is not something that should be wished on anyone...educate yourself on STDs and stop making accusations without the facts

This is a straight copy from the mayo clinic http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/hiv-aids

"To become infected with HIV, infected blood, semen or vaginal secretions must enter your body. You can't become infected through ordinary contact — hugging, kissing, dancing or shaking hands — with someone who has HIV or AIDS. HIV can't be transmitted through the air, water or via insect bites.
You can become infected with HIV in several ways, including:
  • During sex. You may become infected if you have vaginal, anal or oral sex with an infected partner whose blood, semen or vaginal secretions enter your body. The virus can enter your body through mouth sores or small tears that sometimes develop in the rectum or vagina during sexual activity.
  • Blood transfusions. In some cases, the virus may be transmitted through blood transfusions. American hospitals and blood banks now screen the blood supply for HIV antibodies, so this risk is very small.
  • Sharing needles. HIV can be transmitted through needles and syringes contaminated with infected blood. Sharing intravenous drug paraphernalia puts you at high risk of HIV and other infectious diseases such as hepatitis.
  • From mother to child. Infected mothers can infect their babies during pregnancy or delivery, or through breast-feeding. But if women receive treatment for HIV infection during pregnancy, the risk to their babies is significantly

When HIV/AIDS first surfaced in the United States, it predominantly affected homosexual men. The type of HIV found in many African nations is more easily spread through heterosexual sex. Anyone of any age, race, sex or sexual orientation can be infected, but you're at greatest risk of HIV/AIDS if you:
  • Have unprotected sex. Unprotected sex means having sex without using a new latex or polyurethane condom every time. Anal sex is more risky than is vaginal sex. The risk increases if you have multiple sexual partners.
  • Have another STD. Many sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) produce open sores on your genitals. These sores act as doorways for HIV to enter your body.
  • Use intravenous drugs. People who use intravenous drugs often share needles and syringes. This exposes them to droplets of other people's blood.
  • Are an uncircumcised man. Studies indicate that lack of circumcision increases the risk for heterosexual transmission of HIV."

There are lots of websites out there with information on how HIV is spread, who is more at risk...but remember you need to be responsible for your own actions...

Monday, October 11, 2010

stress

ok so its the last week of the first class...My final exam is on Thursday... which means I am half way through first semester....as long as I pass...

Since I am stressed the best way to cope is to talk about it...and since I have to learn about stress and coping I thought I would share a little from my book...lets just see what pertains to me...

Clinical Manifestations of Stress...From Kozier & Erb
  • Pupils dilate (yep, probably from lack of sleep)
  • Sweat production (girls don't sweat we glow)
  • Heart Rate and Cardiac output increase (ok just a little, but i do drink a lot of coffee)
  • Skin is pallid (pale, um just a little but i am part vampire)
  • Sodium and water retention increase (um...)
  • rate and depth respiration increase (not yet)
  • urinary output decreases (not gonna tell you even if I did)
  • mouth may be dry (ok...)
  • peristalsis of the intestines decrease (mmm)
  • mental alertness improves (yeah maybe in some people)
  • muscle tension increases (could totally use a rub down)
  • blood sugar increases (maybe that's from all the candy I have been eating)
ok so not that bad...argh....like I said half way through

Friday, October 8, 2010

going back to the roots







You know when i first went blonde a lot of people didnt like it...they were so upset that i had cut my long brown hair...now i am getting the same reaction going back to my roots..Its just hair people...it you keep too much bleach in it for too long of a time...its gonna fall out...
Please dont be mean or hurtful because of the switch....If you dont like it thats ok...hair doesnt change who I am on the inside...It only changes how you see me on the outside...I am still the same person...







Saturday, October 2, 2010

the one





So last night I got stood up…it wasn’t the first time…so after about a half a bottle of wine and a really bad chick flick “Working Girl” with crazy shoulder pads and big hair…my roommate came home…
No we didn’t fuck…sorry its not that kind of story….
Anyway while he was smoking his weed and I was drinking my wine, he told me I always end up picking the same type of guy…and they turn out to be assholes, we will call them shape shifters (from the onion video)…he said instead of focusing on the disappointment I should describe my perfect guy…and if the guy doesn’t fit into that mold…he’s not worth my time…lol
So we made up a fictional guy that would be perfect for me…we even named him….I thought it was funny so I’m Sharing
 
Jonathan….is his name
Has to be taller then me when I wear high heels, so lets say at least 6 foot…
A gentleman who opens the car door and doors to restaurants,
A guy who is only a little jealous, you know the kind that gives you a kiss when another guy is checking you out…then gives the guy the thank you look not the fuck off look…
A guy I can put my head on his shoulder and tell him about my day
Must love country music
Likes to dance
Has a job that helps people (gives back to the community) but makes good money too…lol
Must be clean
Can protect me if we were getting harassed
Takes out the trash
Cooking is not a necessity but he must be able to barbeque
Good at sex
At least 7 inches
Likes to share but only when I’m around, because its gotta be some sort of monogamy…
 
Disclaimer : I reserve the right to change my mind at any time due to the fact that I am a woman…and we change our minds every 5 mins